LOST

That feeling has gone.

died out.

i am seriously lost this time. I have to get myself back.
that's is the problem. i have to get myself back.

I can't remember days.
I can't remember voices.
I am totally, throughly, completely lost in the time flood.

i hate it that i have to admit i have changed again. I have been saying this all my life and now even i am here, where i tried to escape to, i am still ridiculously the same.

I am stuck.

the colour, the smell, the everything.
can i mend it? or should i leave? part of my mind knows that i need something.

the challenging, the achievement, the independence.....

變色

很久沒有寫Blog了

自從搬到Windsor之後，再度展開規律的工程師生活。前一兩個月，覺得還是很新鮮，畢竟也好一陣字沒有開始寫程式了，上班時的英文還是覺得有點吃力，剛開始也為了讓自己能趕快上手，花了不少時間讀爛Code。對於大小公司的文化衝擊，感受甚深。自己也不斷的在調整工作態度，修正自己的上班時間，試圖慢慢的找到生活（或旅遊？）與工作的平衡點，希望也許可以領悟個什麼偉大的原則，取經回臺！

漸漸的，試用期也如預測的過了。一切都開始漸漸的穩定，發現抱怨又多了，路上的風景又變無趣了，其實，心底明顯地感覺到有什麼東西變色了，可惜我不知道是什麼。我離開軌道很久了，很久了。

新年的開始，讓我重新許下願望，一切重新來過吧！