”對自己好的“：
not like when we were young, we studied because it is good for us ( school-wise)
now, good for us has broader meaning.
it can be good for our career.
it can be good for our health.
it can be good for our mind (such as being happier, feeling life is fun)
it can be good for making more money, etc.
after preparing my script for a speech in my english class, i started to miss the life i had when i was in England. interestingly, the time that i recalled most often is that time i was still finding the job in London.
the fairest thing in this world probably is that everyone has the same amount of time a day -- 24 hrs.
i know that how much time and efforts you put into something and how close you will be close to it.
this May, i am 32. i can really feel the time flies.
everyone has its own destiny but that's not the point. It doesn't matter how others are. it is what i am that matters.
i've spent more than 7 years being an software developer.
i've spent almost 2 years living in a foreign country and seeking new findings of myself.
this is my own life. it is me who's responsible for it, not others. don't blame on other people or things or environment. if my life has not changed that's because you dont let it change. just do it, even if every step is tiny and it seems no time for big changes. it really doesn't matter. keep seeking and never stop.
probably the first time i've ever enjoyed a rainy day so much
that's why everyone needs some time to be alone.
without any interruption.
without any distraction.
only feel the existence of oneself and the surroundings.
i feel much better now
keep telling myself that
所謂家家有本難念的經
然後通常最難唸的經就是自己手上那一本
要讀通很難
要看到能夠改進的點又更難
我想
對每個人來說了解人性是一個很重要的課題
只有在能裡解人性之後
才能好好觀察自己
修復自己
我祈禱身邊的人和我自己都可以快樂度過自己想要過的人生
獨處真的很重要
Since it's a just a start of 2015, i'd better grab this opportunity to encourage myself to get started whatever i've wanted to do.
first of all, less facebook. before I went to England, I didn't use facebook often. However, having been away from my own country, facebook has then become a reasonable place that i can get the "local" information from. I knew some big social news or elections in tw from facebook, instead of "news" websites. I learnt that some friends stepped into their marriages or new born baby's caring centres. I've got used to spend more time reading on facebook, which I do find it rather annoying. Now since I'm back, it's time to get rid of it and it should be easier, i hope!
the second thing I am hoping I can make it is that I can keep practising my english. This is much harder and requires more determination to turn it into a habit. The major target is still the speaking. I quite miss the last two months i was in England. I am glad that I didn't go travelling around the UK which was one of my option that how I fancied to do with my last two months there. I've decided to live with my own willings. no distraction, no excuse. And, it'd turned out one of my most wonderful period of time in my life. That's all because I really lived based on how I wanted it. I hope I can make that kind of life style not just a one-time experience but all the time. Managing my time keeping learning english is the first step and a part of it!
the rest of it is mainly to do with my job, such as looking for a job and working on some personal projects i'm interested in.
