neVER stOp

 the fairest thing in this world probably is that everyone has the same amount of time a day -- 24 hrs.

i know that how much time and efforts you put into something and how close you will be close to it.

this May, i am 32. i can really feel the time flies.

everyone has its own destiny but that's not the point. It doesn't matter how others are. it is what i am that matters.

i've spent more than 7 years being an software developer.
i've spent almost 2 years living in a foreign country and seeking new findings of myself.

this is my own life. it is me who's responsible for it, not others. don't blame on other people or things or environment. if my life has not changed that's because you dont let it change. just do it, even if every step is tiny and it seems no time for big changes. it really doesn't matter. keep seeking and never stop.

unLimiTeD

今天坐車突然想起來以前的自己

不管是國中還是高中

老愛標新立異

相較於現在

好像就少了那點年少輕狂的氣勢了

想要有很多改變啊

rAiny DAy

probably the first time i've ever enjoyed a rainy day so much

it's brought the intolerably high temperature down dramatically that i feel cool and calm immediately once i walked out from home. 

today's heavy rain just makes everything greener, cooler and more comfortable. 

suRRouNDingS

that's why everyone needs some time to be alone.



without any interruption.
without any distraction.
only feel the existence of oneself and the surroundings.

i feel much better now

pUT iT inTO peRSpeCTIve

keep telling myself that 

everyone is different since the world needs diversity 

but to calm all my thoughts down is another story 

this unique trip's changed me quite a lot in a way 

even though i didn't realise it until i came back

he said...

coming home puts it into perspective.

it can't be more correct and precise. 

I found myself starting to digest all i've received in the trip when coming back home. 

I probably should've noted down every thought's transition. 

appreciate home but not used to it. 

bring those new habits back home.

regain self-confidence from mastering the language

get annoyed by people who are not satisfied with their salary which is already beyond average. 

get pissed off by people who just care about money

get pretty upset by people who ride or drive on pavements. 

start to give deep thoughts about that every job has its own unique value and is equally noble. 

start to appreciate all different works around the world 

feel happy when simply watching birds fly around or plants grow into their own beauty

quickly find out myself spending money much more then i was in the trip and feel a bit guilty

still enjoy listening all sorts of accents 

start to get less annoyed by people who care little about others

feel sorry about generally long working hours in taiwan

feel embarrassed when finding myself or others treating families impolitely 

first time ever really think i shouldn't go to see the doctor because there are some other people who need the medical service more then me

appreciate the time being together with my family even more  

get confused about my future 

get confused about my career

get confused about what i really want

get confused about what on earth is important to me 

keep being confused with my own life 

dislike news even more so

feel lost 

want a long time to be alone 

feel powerless of myself

want to do more 

want to get on the trip and take the challenge to see how far i can go again

.......

coming home puts it into perspective.....and it is still changing and fermenting....

we'll see.